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and i'm drowning, DROWNING in my promises
Jun. 7th, 2013 03:13 amgod, i just sobbed for ten minutes straight because im so overwhelmed
i'm doing nearly all the homework for three summer classes, which go by incredibly quickly. meaning extra big heapings of work.
i wake up at 8:30am, go to work at 10am, get back to my apartment at 3:12pm, eat and shower for the first time that day. Then i get crackin on my homework directly afterwards, which usually ends up being 4:30pm. my history quizzes and discussions are due at 11:59pm every night. Teme's feminism blog posts--which are the length of a one page essay--and discussions are due at 8pm every night, which a 4-6 page paper due every couple of days at 8am or noon. Then there's her biology that I help with while I'm at her place, which is four discussion questions and two essay questions, pretty much. Tonight I'm writing an actual paper for her bio class, which is actually pretty off script.
with all of that, I'm doing homework from 4:30pm to 3am. Sometimes 1am, if I'm lucky. that's 10 fucking hours of homework. non-stop. at least tonight i got a sandwich...
when I get home, i desperately cling to my online world, hoping that I can calm down and have some kind of down time. an hour or two of that, and I go to bed. Usually at around 4 or 5am. At 8:30am I get up, and I do it all again.
I can't fucking do this man. And I'm supposed to be working on my hardest cosplay project yet during all this fuckery? i can't fucking do that. i just. i wanted to die tonight, writing this paper all alone in my apartment and knowing I'll be tired again come tomorrow, and I'll be doing all this again, god help me.
I love her. I want to help her. I want to do things for her, whenever I can, however i can. But she needs to do her own homework every once in a while. I'll do all her feminism just fine, I know she couldn't stand that, ever. But I can't handle all this biology shit too, on top of everything on my plate. AND she expects me to finish our CMV before Animinni? At this rate? Not gonna fucking happen.
I'm losing precious sleep typing this up because i'm not even done with her paper. i'mjust
i want it all to end sometimes
i'm doing nearly all the homework for three summer classes, which go by incredibly quickly. meaning extra big heapings of work.
i wake up at 8:30am, go to work at 10am, get back to my apartment at 3:12pm, eat and shower for the first time that day. Then i get crackin on my homework directly afterwards, which usually ends up being 4:30pm. my history quizzes and discussions are due at 11:59pm every night. Teme's feminism blog posts--which are the length of a one page essay--and discussions are due at 8pm every night, which a 4-6 page paper due every couple of days at 8am or noon. Then there's her biology that I help with while I'm at her place, which is four discussion questions and two essay questions, pretty much. Tonight I'm writing an actual paper for her bio class, which is actually pretty off script.
with all of that, I'm doing homework from 4:30pm to 3am. Sometimes 1am, if I'm lucky. that's 10 fucking hours of homework. non-stop. at least tonight i got a sandwich...
when I get home, i desperately cling to my online world, hoping that I can calm down and have some kind of down time. an hour or two of that, and I go to bed. Usually at around 4 or 5am. At 8:30am I get up, and I do it all again.
I can't fucking do this man. And I'm supposed to be working on my hardest cosplay project yet during all this fuckery? i can't fucking do that. i just. i wanted to die tonight, writing this paper all alone in my apartment and knowing I'll be tired again come tomorrow, and I'll be doing all this again, god help me.
I love her. I want to help her. I want to do things for her, whenever I can, however i can. But she needs to do her own homework every once in a while. I'll do all her feminism just fine, I know she couldn't stand that, ever. But I can't handle all this biology shit too, on top of everything on my plate. AND she expects me to finish our CMV before Animinni? At this rate? Not gonna fucking happen.
I'm losing precious sleep typing this up because i'm not even done with her paper. i'mjust
i want it all to end sometimes
